I apologise, I’ve been a bit slack on the blog and I won’t give any excuses, I have however, been fairly productive on my YouTube Channel. In between been sick for a few days, I’ve been trying to work out how I’d like my next 12 months to look like in regards to the content and dialogue on my social media. I’m working out the countries I’d like to visit, which brands I’d like to work with and whether I should focus a little more attention on fashion than usual. While you may sit and think “oh big deal, such a hard life,” it’s all fairly time consuming and someone has to do it, otherwise AK here is left sitting in her woman cave, sending doggy filters on snapchat. Tailoring emails and sending them out or responding to everything I get is a full time job in itself. Don’t forget, I’m a one woman army over here, for the moment.
This coming week I will be travelling back to Osijek to spend a few days with my family in the village and also collecting the rest of my stuff at my parent’s house in the city. I also need to basically become “legal” here so I’ll spend an afternoon registering myself from Osijek to Zagreb and I must do this in person in the city I am registered at in the present. The Croatian Government enjoy making life easy for citizens of their country… obviously not. Being in Osijek also means I’ll be with my favourite little cousin, Barbara and we are filming a whole new list of challenges for my YouTube channel because she has her own following on my channel and I must meet this demand. Haha I’m still trying to convince her to start her own channel but she refuses and wants to focus on school. *Eyes Roll* If there are any challenges you recommend, let me know in the comments section below.
♥ JoomBoos VideoStar
So, over the past few weeks, I’ve had several journalists pitch to me that I should enter the Joomboos VideoStar Competition. Wtf is that? Great question, I thought the same thing too. It’s a competition searching for the next YouTube Star in the Balkans. Now, I wouldn’t consider myself a star, more or less a nuisance at times but I have created a somewhat colourful life filled with many failures that I still haven’t spoken about and also many successes- Moving from Sydney to London with just a feeling in my heart that “I had to go.” Living in London alone for two years while keeping that dream alive and knowing in my heart that one day my dreams will come true in my own country, Croatia. I don’t know but as you’ve seen over the years, I like to live on the edge.
Why am I babbling on? Because YouTube is a big thing for me and my main focus in the new year. It is also a platform I was chicken shit scared of using to showcase my life over the last 3 years. I received a message from a friend in Sydney the other day and it literally read, “Look at you, back in June you were still scared of vlogging and now you’re uploading every week.” And it’s so true. She was with me in London and I said, “I should actually be vlogging but I’m fucking scared,” even though I had my dream camera, the Canon G7X- I was still coming up with excuses. That Yoga Challenge Video literally spreading like a rash within 24 hours was the best thing ever because I got over my fear of being on video. You can read my thoughts on Huffington Post here.
So entering this competition is kind of a big deal. Obviously it has always been my dream to have a strong voice in my own country and really empower people to live their dream lives. Platforms such as YouTube provide an excellent opportunity for youth in the balkans to really connect and create their dream life, just overcoming that fear is one of the most important factors, not listening to negativity such as family is another. I still don’t have the support of my family, my greatest supporters are people I don’t even know. They are people in countries where the scene is the polar opposite to the one I call normal and they connect with my writing or my videos because it’s a lifestyle they can only dream of. And from what I hear, I tell my stories quite well, through writing or through my videos.
As much as I would love to win the competition because it actually would change my life, entering it was winning enough.
♥ New Post on JetsetTimes
♥ Elle Style Awards in Zagreb
Well, tonight was fun #ElleCroatia ??? Time now ? Got a crazy week of filming, work & meetings ahead – i dont even know what day it is anymore ? there's no such thing as a weekend on the way to the ?? ps. The most stunning photos from today will be revealed on my blog over the next few days, until then you'll have to have a toss over this #selfie
I was fortunate enough to be invited along to the Elle Style Awards in Zagreb last Thursday. Praying for a medical miracle, I hoped to feel better by the evening which I did. I know no one enjoys being sick but I loathe it with a passion, I feel so unproductive and helpless. All good, I am writing this post from good health so I’m grateful for that. The evening was very lush, top sponsors as you’ll see in my vlog and room filled with the glitterati from Croatia. Check out my video, I’ll be posting a proper post on the blog during the week.
♥ 6 Weeks of Sobriety
This morning I woke up from a nightmare that was so intense I actually thought it was real. I had a dream that I broke my sobriety and understandably regretted it instantly. I literally laid there in my bed for several minutes and had to recap the past 24 hours and what I had done to convince myself it was just a dream, or nightmare. It just reinforced how serious and precious this sobriety is to me. I can’t say it’s easy because as you can see, I am attending events where I could be drinking and usually am drinking… excessively but it’s rewarding. Right now, for the first time in my life, I am putting myself and my needs first. Healing from my decade long pain is my biggest priority. I cannot self sabotage myself anymore and I cannot put anymore bandaids on demons that I must deal with. I can’t use alcohol as the tool to celebrate or distract myself anymore. I must learn to live without it and day by day, I am.
Ok, I think I have rambled on enough in this post but I just wanted to show that I am still here and I am just preparing our journey ahead for the next 12 months. I hope you all have a wonderful week & don’t forget to smile. xx2