“Life is a cruel teacher. She loves to give you the test first and the lesson later.”
Early last December I had £28 in my bank account. Did you notice? Of course you didn’t. I’d paid my rent in oh so overpriced London for a tiny fortune I could live off in Croatia for six months, a pile of ridiculous bills you can’t escape in this city if you’re fortunate enough to call it home, my suite and flight to Budapest, gotten a head start on some Christmas shopping; All this, resulting in a suffocation of my funds.
While I had a decent amount in an untouchable savings account on the contrary, I still had £28 to my name to play with. How fucking fun?! I was waiting for a few large overdue invoices to be paid and once again, my money management skills had me looking and feeling like a fool. I felt broke, I kind of was broke but I wasn’t broke enough to call my parents. Every time I catch up with my father he always asks me if I’m “Okay,” meaning, “Do you need money?” Since I’ve moved from Sydney to Europe the answer has always been no. I’m a great purveyor of my paragon for success and I knew that I would be fine.
“Life is like business, 20% of what happens to you is 80% of how you react.” Daymond John
Being so low on dough had me down, it had me anxious for a short while and it had me thinking. It had me wondering why I felt compelled to spend so much those days I had so much when I could actually survive on less than £5 a day, if I really tried. It also had me assess where I spent my money and what actually was the return on investment on these things. Did it enrich my life? Give me a new experience? Or simply just give me a hangover?
“I used to walk down the street like I was a fucking star… I want people to walk around delusional about how great they can be – and then to fight so hard for it every day that the lie becomes the truth.” Lady Gaga
Can I fill you in on a little secret? Here’s the deal, I loved every minute of having “no money.” It was the most creatively inspiring and motivating period of my life because I had no other choice but to see the glass as half full. I was technically on zero yet consciously walked around like “I had it all,” whatever that means. My positive self talk was taking over the conversation in my head and I had ideas coming from all corners of the universe. In this instance, my hunger and determination outweighed itself compared to when I was cashed up, I had forgotten what it felt like to be hungry, pun not intended, I definitely did not starve. It was a time where I decided not to see the lack of money as an obstacle, but rather the motivator to work harder than ever in the new year and never allow this to happen again.
“Capital is no longer the key ingredient to success anymore, it’s creativity and passion.” Harley Finkelstein
I could have sat there in the corner and cried, “oh poor me,” (literally) but I figured this would achieve nothing and only bring my vibration down. So, I went to the gym a little more frequently, meditated and channelled abundance, success & health, practised gratitude and positive self talk, read a book and spent some time alone. Why? Partly because I couldn’t afford to do anything in London and secondly, I needed to salvage my final £28.
Did you notice what I mentioned that I did while I had “nothing?” Everything I should have been doing when I had the funds to float all over the city. I let having money be a distraction to the mindfulness I should have been practising regardless of my financial position. These were all the key ingredients I used to not only maintain an inner peace but to also nurture my creativity.
Have a wonderful March and trust the process, Adriana x